(Judas had bought a field with the money he received for his treachery. Falling headfirst there, his body split open, spilling out all his intestines. The news of his death spread to all the people of Jerusalem, and they gave the place the Aramaic name Akeldama, which means “Field of Blood.”)
Acts of the Apostles 1:18-19 NLT
Out of the twelve disciples Jesus chose, one failed. Judas betrayed Jesus for thirty pieces of silver. He was more interested in money than in a relationship with Jesus.
I can’t imagine how someone could spend three years with Jesus, listen to His messages, witness His miracles first-hand, and then choose to trade Jesus for some money. There must have been some fatal flaw in Judas that he hid and never dealt with it.
Perhaps when we look back on his life, we could see a little warning. When the woman poured the expensive perfume on Jesus, it was Judas who objected to the waste. He thought it was ridiculous to waste so much money on worship. Judas said the money should have been used to feed the poor. The writer of the gospel story tells us Judas said this not because he cared for the poor but because he was the treasurer of the group and was taking money out of the bag for himself.
I’m sure that Judas justified his “borrowing” from the treasury of the small band of disciples. Perhaps he planned to pay it back. He might have considered it just a loan until he got back on his feet. But something was stirring inside; the spirit of greed was taking over his soul.
When we allow sin to continue to work in our lives, it will grow, grow, and grow. What starts as a little sin will turn into a train wreck. Just ask Judas.
In the end, Judas couldn’t stand himself. His guilt was more than he could process. To escape himself, he commits suicide. So sad, forgiveness was just one prayer away.
I believe Jesus would have forgiven Judas just like He forgave Peter. He could have restored Judas and once again shown the world the wonder of God’s grace.
Holy Spirit, show me today any hidden sin in my life. Help me to realize I must deal with every sin and cut it off at the roots so that it doesn’t continue to grow. Help me live in freedom.
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